Surviving college life

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Can you believe that it’s already halfway through February?
It’s scary how time flies.

So anyway, I’m here now. I’m currently studying Foundation Studies in Trinity College Melbourne. That explains my absence for weeks. It’s still orientation week so I can update out and about of my life more frequently. It’s going to be an exciting year ahead.  Or perhaps the tempo of my life is going to be hectic. Not to mention the walking distance in the main campus is very demanding.  I wonder how many kilometers I’ve walked. Even so, college life is full of surprises. I’m enjoying being a college student 🙂

Try not. Do or do not. There is no try.

There’s no pretending.

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I’m sick of pretending.

The hardest thing to do in life is to pretend to be what you’re not. Because pretending is hard. Lying to yourself every waking hour of everyday isn’t easy. I know that I’m lucky and should be grateful for everything I have, what gets me are those things, those people who I have lost, who have left me, those whom life has pushed away from me. I pretend that they never mattered, that I couldn’t be happier, but the truth is I feel so incomplete, so unhappy, so empty of any hope whatsoever. I hate myself. I hate what I’ve become. I hate that I can’t just move on like any normal human being can.

What if…I’m pretending?

Love letter.

My brain doesn’t work on Monday.

Dear Monday,

Thanks for having the word “mon” in you. That’s French for “mine”, in case you were aware, Monday, but it makes me think of you more as “my day”, and frankly that sounds like a much more promising start to the week.

Best, Rachel.

Why are the weekends so far from Mondays but Mondays are so near from the weekends?